[ Something I can never have | A drift at peace | The fragile | The becoming | Gone, still | And all that could have been | The persistence of loss | Leaving Hope ]

Hey God, why are you doing this to me ?
Am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be ?
Why am i seething with this animosity ?
Hey God, i think you owe me a great big apology

Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie

Hey God, i really don't know what you mean
Seems like salvation comes only in our dreams
I feel my hatred grow all the more extreme
Hey God, can this world really be as sad as it seems

Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie

Don't take it away from me
I need someone to hold on to
Don't take it away from me
I need someone to hold on to

Hey God, there's nothing left for me to hide
I lost my ignorance, security and pride
I'm all alone in a world you must despise
Hey God, i believed that promises, your promises and lies

Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie

You made me throw it all away
My morals left to decay
How many you betray
You've taken everything

Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie

My head is filled with disease
My skin is begging you please
I'm on my hands and knees
I want so much to believe

Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie

I give you everything
My sweet everything
Hey God, i really don't know who i am
In this world of piss

You give me the reason
You give me control
I gave you my Purity
My Purity you stole
Did you think i wouldn't recognize this compromise
Am i just too stupid to realize
Stale incense old sweat and lies lies lies

It comes down to this
Your kiss
Your fist
And your strain
It gets under my skin
Within
Take in the extent of my sin

You give me the anger
You give me the nerve
Carry out my sentence
I get what i deserve
I'm just an effigy to be defaced
To be disgraced
Your need for me has been replaced
And if i can't have everything well then just give me a taste

It comes down to this
Your kiss
Your fist
And your strain
It get's under my skin
Within
Take in the extent of my sin

Step right up march push
Crawl right up on your knees
Please greed feed (no time to hesitate)
I want a little bit i want a piece of it i think he's losing it
I want to watch it come down
Don't like the look of it don't like the taste of it don't like the smell of it
I want to watch it come down
All the pigs are all lined up
I give you all that you want
Take the skin and peel it back
Now doesn't that make you feel better?
Shove it up inside surprise! lies
Stains like the blood on your teeth
Bite chew suck away the tender parts
I want to break it up i want to smash it up i want to fuck it up
I want to watch it come down
Maybe afraid of it let's discredit it let's pick away at it
I want to watch it come down
Now doesn't that make you feel better?
The pigs have won tonight
Now they can all sleep soundly
And everything is all right

Hey pig
Yeah you
Hey pig piggy pig pig pig
All of my fears came true
Black and blue and broken bones you left me here i'm all alone
My little piggy needed something new

Nothing can stop me now
I don't care anymore
Nothing can stop me now
I just don't care

Hey pig
Nothing's turning out the way i planned
Hey pig there's a lot of things i hoped you could help me understand
What am i supposed to do i lost my shit because of you

Nothing can stop me now
I don't care anymore
Nothing can stop me now
I just don't care
Nothing can stop me now
You don't need me anymore

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just a reflection
just a glimpse
just a little reminder
of all the what abouts
and all the might have
could have been
another day
some other way
but not another reason to continue
and now you're one of us
the wretched

the hopes and prays
the better days
the far aways
forget it

it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it, did it ?
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it, did it ?

now you know
this is what it feels like
now you know
this is what it feels like

the clouds will part and the sky cracks open
and god himself will reach his fucking arm
through
just to push you down
just to hold you down
stuck in his hole with the shit and the piss
and it's hard to believe it could come down to this
back at the beginning
sinking
spinning
and in the end
we still pretend
the time we spend
not knowing when
you're finally free
and you could be

but it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out quite the way you wanted it

now you know
this is what it feels like
now you know
this is what it feels like

you can try to stop it but it keeps on coming
you can try to stop it but

Perfect little dream the kind that hurts the most
Forgot how it feels well almost
No one to blame always the same
Open my eyes wake up in flames
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me realize
It took you to make me see the light
Smashed up my sanity
Smashed up my integrity
Smashed up what i believed in
Smashed up what's left of me
Smashed up my everything
Smashed up all that was true
Gonna smash myself to pieces
I don't know what else to do
Covered in hope and vaseline
Still cannot fix this broken machine
Watching the hole it used to be mine
Just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
Of the trust i will betray
Give it to me i throw it away
After everything i've done i hate myself for what i've become
I tried
I gave up
Throw it away

starring at the sea
will she come ?
is there hope for me
after all is said and done
anything at any price
all of this for you
all the spoils of a wasted life
all of this for you
all the world has closed her eyes
tired faith all worn and thin
for all we could have done
and all that could have been

ocean pulls me close
and whispers in my ear
the destiny i've chose
all becoming clear
the currents have their say
the time is drawing near
washes me away
makes me disappear
i descend from grace
in arms of undertow
i will take my place
in the great below

i can still feel you
even so far away

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This is the first day of my last days
I built it up now i take it apart climbed up real high now fall down real far
No need for me to stay the last thing left i just threw it away
I put my faith in god and my trust in you
Now there's nothing more fucked up i could do
Wish there was something real
Wish there was something true
Wish there was something real
In this world full of you

I'm the one without a soul
I'm the one with this big fucking hole
No new tale to tell twenty-six years on my way to hell
Gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist fuck
Don't think you're having all the fun
You know me i hate everyone
Wish there was something real
Wish there was something true
Wish there was something real
In this world full of you
I want to but i can't turn back
But i want to...

There is no god up in the sky tonight
No sign of heaven anywhere in sight
All that was true is left behind
Once I could see now I am blind
Don't want your dreams you try to sell
This disease I give to myself

How does it feel?
How does it feel?

She makes it sweeter than the sun
I get too tight I come undone
I bow my head to confess
The temple walls are made of flesh
Runs up my arms 'til I'm on track
Itches my skin right off of my back
I'll heal your wounds
I'll set you free
I'm Jesus Christ on Ecstacy

How does it feel?
How does it feel?

{Chuchoté}
I am so dirty on on the inside
I am so dirty on on the inside
I am so dirty on on the inside
I am so dirty on on the inside

How does it feel?
How does it feel?

Suck Suck Suck Suck

{Chuchoté}
A thousand lips a thousand tongues
A thousand throats a thousand lungs
A thousand ways to make it true
I want to do terrible things to you

You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me i broke apart my insides, help me i've got no soul to sell
Help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god
You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
Help me tear down my reason, help me it's your sex i can smell
Help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

Through every forest, above the trees
Within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
You are the reason i stay alive

God money i'll do anything for you
God money just tell me what you want me to
God money nail me up against the wall
God money don't want everything he wants it all

No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me
No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me

Head like a hole
Black as your soul
I'd rather die than give you control
Head like a hole
Black as your soul
I'd rather die than give you control

Bow down before the one you serve
You're going to get what you deserve
Bow down before the one you serve
You're going to get what you deserve

God money's not looking for the cure
God money's not concerned with the sick amongst the pure
God money let's go dancing on the backs of the bruised
God money's not one to choose

No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me
No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me

Bow down before the one you serve
You're going to get what you deserve
Bow down before the one you serve
You're going to get what you deserve

Bow down before the one you serve
You're going to get what you deserve
Bow down before the one you serve
You're going to get what you deserve

No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me
No you can't take it
No you can't take it
No you can't take that away from me

Bow down before the one you serve
You're going to get what you deserve
Bow down before the one you serve
You're going to get what you deserve

You know who you are

I'd listen to the words he'd say
But in his voice i heard decay
The plastic face forced to portray
And the insides left cold and gray
There is a place that still remains
It eats the fear it eats the pain
The sweatest price he'll have to pay
The day the whole world went away
Na na nah
Na na na, nah
Na na nah
Na na na, nah

My god sits in the back of the limousine
My god comes in a wrapper of cellophane
My god pouts on the cover of the magazine
My god's a shallow little bitch trying to make the scene
I have arrived and this time you should believe the hype
I listened to everyone i know that everyone was right
I'll be there for you as long as you work for me
I play a game
It's called insincerity

Starfuckers
Starfuckers
Starfuckers, inc.
Starfuckers

I am every fucking thing and just a little more
I sold out my soul but don't you dare call me a whore
And when i suck you off not a drop will go to the waste
It's really not so bad you know once you get past the taste, yeah
(Asskisser)
Starfuckers
Starfuckers
Starfuckers, inc.
Starfuckers

All our pain
How did we ever get by without you?
You're so vain
I bet you think this song is about you
Don't you?
Don't you?
Don't you?
Don't you?

Now i belong i'm one of the chosen ones
Now i belong i'm one of the beautiful ones

I hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But i remember everything
What have i become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone i know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of shit
On my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have i become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone i know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If i could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

I still recall the taste of my tears
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
Scraping through my head 'till i don't want to sleep anymore

Come on tell me
Make this all go away
You make this all go away
I'm down to just to thing
And i'm starting to scare myself
Make this all go away
You make this all go way
I just want something
I just want something i can never have

You always were the one to show me how
Back then i couldn't do the things that i can do now
This is slowly take me apart
Grey would be the color if i had a heart
I just want something i can never have
In this place it seems like such a same
Though it all looks different now,
I know it's still the same
Everywhere i look you're all i see
Just a fading fucking reminder of who i used to be

Come on tell me
Make this all go away
You make this all go away
I'm down to just to thing
And i'm starting to scare myself
Make this all go away
You make this all go way
I just want something
I just want something i can never have
I just want something i can never have
Think i know what you meant
That night on my bed
Still picking at this scab
I wish you were dead.
You sweet and perry ellis
Just stains on my sheets

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she shines
in a world full of ugliness
she matters
when everything is meaningless

fragile
she doesn't see her beauty
she tries to get away
sometimes
it's just that nothing seems worth saving
i can't watch her slip away

i won't let you fall apart

she reads the minds of all the people as they pass by
hoping can see
if i could fix myself i'd -
but it's too late for me

i won't let you fall apart

we'll find a perfect place to go where we can run and hide
i'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
... but they keep waiting
... and picking ...

it's someting i have to do
i was there, too
before everything else
i was like you

I beat my machine it's a part of me it's inside of me
I'm stuck in this dream it's changing me i am becoming
The me that you know had some second thoughts
He's covered with scabs and he is broken and sore
The me that you know doesn't come around much
That part of me isn't here anymore
All pain disappears it's the nature of my circuitry
Drowns out all i hear there's no escape from this my new consciousness
That me that you know used to have feelings
But the blood has stopped pumping and he's left to decay
The me that you know is now made up of wires
And even when i'm right with you i'm so far away
I can try to get away but i've strapped myself in
I can try to scratch away the sound in my ears
I can see it killing away all my bad parts
I don't want to listen but it's all too clear

Hiding backwards inside of me i feel so unafraid
Annie, hold a little tighter i might just slip away

It won't give up it wants me dead
Goddamn this noise inside my head

instrumental

breeze still carries the sound
maybe I'll disappear
tracks will fade in the snow
you won't find me here

ice is starting to form
ending what had begun
i am locked in my head
with what I've done
I know you tried to rescue me
didn't let anyone get in
left with a trace of all that was
and all that could have been

please
take this
and run far away
far away from me
I am
tainted
the two of us
were never meant to be
all these
pieces
and promises and left behinds
if only I could see
in my
nothing
you meant everything
everything to me
gone fading everything
and all that could have been

please
take this
and run far away
far as you can see
I am
tainted
and happiness and piece of mind
were never meant for me
all these
pieces
and promises and left behinds
if only I could see
in my
nothing
you meant everything
everything to me

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